This week has been eventful to say the least. I know I say this alway but work has been stressful. I don’t want to complain about it too much because while there was a lot to do, it was a good work week. It was challenging but it was a productive one and that’s all I can ask for. As the weekend rolled around and things started to quiet down, I was forced to really listen to all my feelings and thoughts I’ve been ignoring during the work week.
I don’t know about you but when the weekends roll around, everything I’ve been kind of anxious about during the week starts to double and I no longer have the distraction of work to numb away the feelings. There aren’t any people to bounce my mood off and no happy faces to mirror so I’m literally left with nothing but my thoughts.
If I’m going to spend an entire weekend with my thoughts, I want them to be good thoughts, not thoughts that start off a bit mellow and end up spiraling into endless thoughts of dismal tangents and worries for the future that have yet to occur. This weekend, I worked particularly hard to change my mindset of things and rewrote some narratives I find myself recycling when I’m not feeling the best.
For example, instead of writing off the day because I didn’t wake up early, I instead start the morning off as if I didn’t sleep away those extra hours. Usually, if I woke up late when I wanted to wake up early, I’d potter around for the rest of the day, disoriented and frustrated with myself but this weekend, I started my morning as if I woke up early. One of the main reasons I like to start my days early is because it makes me happier and calmer. An added bonus is that I get more stuff done but the main reason I crave early mornings is because I find them grounding. So even though I did wake up late and may not have had the time to complete everything I wanted to, I still was able to change my mindset and allow myself to do the things that make me calm.
All in all, I spent this weekend really changing my mindset on the way I process things that are both within and outside of my control.
One thing that I’m grateful for this weekend is that I finally did some cleaning and organizing I’ve been meaning to do for a long time. I completely went through my pantry and tossed all the expired/empty items and wiped everything down. I also bought a spice rack for myself in February and it may have taken me a couple of weeks, but I finally set it up.
I also finally finished a book and words cannot explain how much I needed that this weekend.
It was a pretty restorative week for me. How was your week?
I’m slowly making my way through this because I really don’t like it lol. I knew that if I didn’t have this playing on the background, I’d just continue my rewatch of Shadow and Bone and I knew that I needed to stop lol. All I’ve been doing since the second season of Shadow and Bone dropped is watching and rewatching the episodes, watching and rewatching all the press videos, and resisting the urge to reread Six of Crows. You all, I do not have the emotional bandwidth to reread Six of Crows right now and I know that if I continue my rewatch of Shadow and Bone, I will end up picking up Six of Crows and that’ll be bad for my future lol.
All that being said, I’m stuck watching this boring four or six episode crime show consisting of extremely racist people that I do not recommend. But it’s only four or six episodes so I’m waiting it out to see if anything interesting happens or there’s anything redeemable about the show. What can I say, I’m a masochist.
I’ve heard of this case before but as I watched the first episode, I realized I knew nothing. All I knew about the case was how it ended but I didn’t realize that this whole hostage situation went on for 51 days! Honestly, I want to watch another documentary about this case because while I learned a lot about it, I need to know more. I’ve heard about this case being referenced in many different cases in the way of how badly it was handled. Honestly saying the case was handled badly is a major understatement. It was pure chaos. There was so much miscommunication, so much meaningless death, and so much messy events that unfolded during and after it. It really did leave me feeling a bit hollow after finishing it. It’s three episodes and it definitely made me shed a couple of tears. Fair warning, the first episode was a bit confusing. There’s no backstory or anything, the directors/film makers drop you right into the story and it’s a bit hard to keep up with. I think it was well done in terms of editing because it really did parallel the chaos of the entire case as a whole.
This has been added to the instant favorites list. This weekend, there was a middle grade readathon and I went into the readathon expecting to read a ton of middle grade books but ended up reading just this one. I did start the third book “INSERT” and am planning to read more of it later tonight but I definitely am not going to be able to finish it. I thought the first book of this series was okay when I read it and I think that’s because I wasn’t in the mood for a middle grade when I read it. The second book though was so gripping and wholesome and dark and eerie and perfection. I really hope that this series becomes the next Harry Potter for future generations because the world is just as wonderful and (maybe even better?). I won’t go too much into detail for it as I’m working on a review for it but I highly recommend picking this one up if you to felt the first book was just okay like me.